FROM CANCER TO HIV TO ME

One of my good friends who considers me her (she is actually a he) best friend moved to Dallas with her boyfriend to get away from their peer pressure and easilly tempting surroundings. Unfortunately, they broke up a couple days ago after nearly two years (my friend has many forms of cancer) and as she walked away from her he told her he hoped she would die quickly. That was him just being plan hateful.

I have told her repeatidly to ignore him and be angry with him for everything. She has given up a lot for this man (which should of been her red lights) and stood by him and made him care for life more so then he did.

Today I received a call from my friend and she said she found out he was HIV positive all this time and he had not told her anything. She told him how she'd asked him more than once and he'd responded that he was negative and he claimed that never happened. This is the same guy who found out a mutual friend of ours was possibly positive and said he wanted his toothbrush out of the restroom to avoid the mutual friend from using his toothbrush and getting him infected. WTF?

Its a crazy world we live in and things can get worse and crazier if you do not look out for yourself. You can help others and so on but its so very important to never put yourself in any kind of jeopardy especially if you know something is wrong.

All I can do is remain a positive attitude towards my friend and hope for the best. She has had a lot more wrong with her lately with the different cancers ravaging her body. I know some day she might not be here ever and that really upsets me. I've known her since I came out practically. Even though she has put me in a lot of bad situations and screwed me over a couple times I'm still a human being who has a huge heart. All we can do is pray and see. Sorry for the morbid entry but enjoy and cherish every day that you have with the people around you who matter and your own life.

MR BLOCKBUSTER

I must have over 500 dvds at home. I'm what you would call a movie fanatic. Lately I've been thinking about movies I saw as a kid and even made-for-tv movies I really enjoyed. Here are a couple to see if you've ever seen them.

(1) The Ultimate Lie - starring Kristin Davis who plays a spoiled young rich girl who rebels against her parents by becoming a call girl; however, one night she arrives at a hotel for a "rendezvous" with a client and discovers to her horror that the client is none other than her father. Yes total Lifetime movie... so unable to find now.

(2) The Quest - starring Henry Thomas (from E.T.) who plays a U.S. orphan who with the help of his girlfriend explore the aboriginal legend of a lake monster in Australia.

(3) Deadly Friend - starring Kristy Swanson and Matthew Laborteaux (the cutie from Little House in the Praire) is about Paul who is a new kid in town with a robot named "BB". He befriends Samantha and the three of them have a lot of good times together. That is, until Samantha's abusive father throws her down some stairs and kills her. In an effort to save her life, Paul implants BB's computer brain into Samantha's human brain.

(4) Fortress - with Rachel Ward is about an Australian school teacher and her students are kidnapped by masked men. She and the children fight for their lives and try to escape from their captors. This movie use to creep me out big time as a kid.

(5) Square Dance - with Winona Ryder and Rob Lowe. Gemma is 13 years old and lives with her grandpa in the country, she has for many years. One day her mother shows up, and wants to take Gemma to the city. Her mother is married now, and can provide for Gemma. Gemma goes with her mother. In the city she gets to know Rory, a mentally retarded boy. They play together, imagining that they are married.

I have about 40 right now that I'm trying to get my hands on. Do you all remember these?

CATCHIN' UP

Sorry I haven't posted but I've been busy with this and that.

I would like to say I am proud of Britney's come back and finally taking it as she should. I wasn't sure if this would all help her but she did a great job on "How I Met Your Mother", which you can now view off of CBS's website.

BTW, when will Ugly Betty come back? I miss that show. Its great in case you have never seen it.

Could you believe Demi Moore uses leeches as a beauty secret? Whats that about?

Way to go to Chelsea Clinton who told that student (who asked about the Monica incidents) it was really none of their business.

So now I'm caught up and a regular post will be seen tomorrow.

DON'T BOTHER TO KNOCK

I have been so exhausted this week and I've had a lot of sleep. I unfortunately am working today unlike more than 3/4 of America who are off during this Good Friday. If I don't have some time off and sleep in I'm going to go insane. My vision via my contacts has been kind of blurry so I'm not sure if I need to switch them out or whats going on; however it did make driving to work kind of fun this morning.

On a separate note I've been wanting to get something off my chest but have decided to discuss it with my boyfriend before posting so now I take it back. I'll post next week on this subject. I will share with you that I got tickets for the True Colors Tour (center section row B--excellent!) and I'm so excited about seeing Andy Bell again. I went last year and it was awesome but we'll see how it goes this year. The line up this year is Cyndi Lauper (of course), the B-52s, Joan Jett & the Blackhearts, Andy Bell of Erasure (WOOAH!), Wanda Sykes, Lili Haydn and host Carson Hessley (or whatever). I can't believe I got such awesome seats and I'm so looking forward to it even though it is in June. The way time has been flying it'll be soon enough.

Have a great day off everyone and enjoy your Easter weekend.

OH HAPPY DAY!

Its a beautiful day here in Houston today. The sun is a shining bright, the sky is a sparkling blue (I almost feel like I should bust out in a song & dance) and its around sixty degrees. Its just perfect.

When I get down to blogging I always forget about what I was going to write about the night before when I thought about it and of course now I no feeling for it whatsoever and so I apologize.

I've been between crazy-busy here at work to not at all and I'm trying to stick to my diet/exercise regime but weather/out of town guests put a dent in that and am getting back to it. Just doing all that has affected me and has made me a bit more crazier (if thats possible).

DREARY, DISMAL DAY

The main reason I went with Naked `n Exposed as a title for my blog was because I wanted to be just that with the way I feel and what I am thinking. Now whether or not I accomplish that will remain to be seen. I guess in some way I am since I am expressing what I'm thinking however; it may not be as deep as something else going on.

The weather outside is gloomy and its cast a feeling of doom over me. I feel like I can't do anything right or the way I have projected for myself through my own goals. I feel like I have no time left to get anything that I really want to accomplish actually completed.

I guess I don't have anything positive to say today. Dreary and quite dismal day.

CUSTOMER SERVICE SUCKS!?

Scenario 1: Last night an old friend of mine and her boyfriend arrived from Dallas to stay with me for a couple days while they deal with some personal business. I picked them up and took them home and we caught up for a bit. I started getting a bit hungry because I've been on the Atkins Diet and so I wanted to see what their plans for dinner were. They didn't have any nor did they have any money on them until tomorrow so I bought them Jack in the Box while I took some take out from a Sushi restaurant. My order alone was $20 and I specified to the girl that I wanted seaweed wrapped smoked salmon, sour cream and cucumber. When we were at home and get ready to watch UNREST I realized they had put white rice in it, which is against my diet but given I'd spent $20 on a meal I decided to eat it as it was. I don't understand what was so wrong about that?

Scenario 2: Yesterday I was at my boyfriend's place and he had just arrived from the grocery store. He started telling me about how rude the cashier was and that he had attempted to use a coupon supplied by the store and she just said it wouldn't scan. As he was leaving she started moving the revolving bag holder for the next customer while he was still trying to get his bags from the guard. (This bitch is lucky I wasn't there cause I would of read the hooker like a book)

Scenario 3: My friend staying with me went to the hospital she gets treatments here in Houston for cancer and while there was trying to get a certain task done. The receptionist some bitchy fag was rude and short (when it came to his talking). He made her do all this extra running around when he could of just made a phone call and when she arrived where she was trying to reach she was told he had called. I told her to go back and read that motherfucker. He's an employee of an establishment that treats sick people who have cancer and he's got to talk to them this way like they need something else to add to their plate? She said she was.

In all I know we all have our bad days. I know I do but when a customer comes in I try to be as courteous as I can be (of course I'm in management now) and of course if its someone I like I enjoy it more. Where has customer service gone these days?